Driving school motorcycle thrown over for the second time

Hello, I’m a bloody beginner as a motorcyclist, honestly I haven’t even been riding a bike for years… now I decided at 25 years for the direct entry A and actually totally looked forward to it. After a few hours on the 125s, which ran quite well, I then threw the Big Z650 right in the first hour. Had too little body tension during the danger braking and then could not hold it anymore… Well, we thought i Ch. Today then double hour overland. Lief so far quite well, was already fully happy and was fun … and then in a long drawn short uphill I had a glance error. Too far looking outward and of course also drove there out of the curves. Could it still slow down, so that it almost only fell slowly and slightly. But great for the emotional situation of course is not ?? Now I am motivated on the one hand to make it better but of course in the joy also totally subdued… How were you at the beginning? Did you also have umfallers, start problems, etc. and then everything went well until the exam? LG Jessi